I was just reading over some old LJ entries and there was a comment from my friend Kellijayne.

Kellijayne was a fucking awesome woman. She grabbed life by the balls and got what she wanted. She was a kick ass stage manager. She was a kick ass drinker. We had sleepovers in her North Melbourne apartment and listened to Fiona Apple and chain smoked and told secrets. She would tell me about how awesome Tasmania was and I always meant to go on a trip there with her. We worked together at Galactic Circus and after every shift we drank shit beer and smoked and it would take me hours to tear myself away and go home to Preston. We went to shows together, one time Paul McDermott tried to make us pash each other. When Michael and I broke up, she was fucking awesome. She led by example. She was fierce and strong and independent. She introduced me to Richard Cheese and I gave her shit for liking Tori Amos. She was beautiful.

In January of this year, I received a facebook message from someone I didn't know, informing me that Kaje had died unexpectedly of multiple brain anuerysms. She would have been 34 this year.. I couldn't afford to go to the service (it was in Tassie) but I hear it was beautiful. Her facebook page is like a shrine and her long-neglected LJ will always sit there untouched, for as long as LJ is around.

She had logged into MSN the day before she died and I thought to myself "should really catch up with Kaje, it's been too long". When I got the facebook message, she was still logged into MSN, but it was obviously too late for the catch up we both kept putting off.

I don't think I really spoke about it on here. And we weren't best friends, but she touched my life, and so many others and was an amazing human. I miss her.

Received the 'your application has been submitted and is being processed' letter today. Now I play the waiting game.

*twiddles thumbs*

You know the drill, right? I've whacked all the mp3s I have on my computer into winamp, selected 'random' and listed the first lines of the first 20 songs (discounting remixes and instrumentals) for y'all to guess at what they are. Whoever guesses the most correct songs gets a gold star*

1. They tried to make me go to rehab, I said no, no, no. - mr_e_cat

2. We're so glad to see so many of you lovely people here tonight, and we would especially like to welcome all the representatives of Illinois' law enforcement community who have chosen to join us - mr_e_cat

3. It's tricky when you feel someone has done something on your behalf

4. Please step inside, just for a while

5. It might not be the right time, I might not be the right one - cadaverique

6. Don't want a four leaf clover, don't want an old horseshoe

7. The shine in your love is gone and you feel like it's been too long

8. Baby baby, baby don't leave me

9. I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends - slowlight

10. I'm in no mood to comb my hair

11. I love I love I love my calender girl - mr_e_cat

12. Right now, right now it's time to... - nazifagbot

13. Pack it up, pack it in, let me begin- drzero

14. I don't feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds that you make- bleeding_rose

15. The voodoo who do what you don't dare do people - slowlight

16. Please don't reproach me for how empty my life has become - Liv!

17. Like the men that were before me, he said

18. I'll be late for that, baby I'll wait for that, if you had a taste of that, you'd probably pay for that

19. I love my mummy 'cause she fucked my dad

20. What would we do? Usually drink, usually dance, usually babble - nazifagbot

*must supply own gold star

I have an inexplicable urge to buy the entire Sonic Youth back catalogue and then lock myself in a room with a bottle of gin and listen to them all in chronological order. I am uncertain as to what this says about my frame of mind.

Haven't been on the LJs in forever. Moved to a new pad. It is simultaneously awesome and awful.

Mostly I just want to quit my job, register my kitchen for commercial cookery and bake some motherfucking cupcakes.

Oh, and if you are yet to hear the début Night Terrors record 'Back to Zero', I suggest you quickly locate yourself a copy and listen to it from start to end, because it's pretty fucking incredible, aight?

One for my nerd/iinet staff friends -

Naked DSL. For Gamers. Is it worth it?

Seeing photos of your estranged father on facebook is weird. Also, who the fuck do all those children belong to and when did all of my cousins get married?

I don't care for this at all.

In happier news, my new job should, at the very least, help me to learn some basic Arabic, Mandarin, Korean and Spanish, amongst other languages. That's kinda cool.

and it's happening
never planned on this
you got something i need
kind of dangerous
and i'm losing control
i'm not used to this
what you want from me?
i'm not used to this
can't seem to shut it off
this thing i've begun
and it's hard to tell - just
where it's coming from
and it's hard to see
what i'm capable of
and it's hard to believe - just
what i've become

hey
can we stop?
me, i'm not

i can swallow it down
keep it all inside
i define myself
by how well i hide
feel it coming apart
well at least i tried
i can win this war
by knowing not to fight
if i take it all back
some way somehow
if i knew back then
what i know right now

hey
can we stop?
me, i'm not

As much as I like my housemates - I don't much care for my house. Besides which, I spend all my time at Gus' place anyway.

Fingers crossed it doesn't take a million years to find one.

I woke up today to discover ants in my sugar and then I dropped a cup of tea which hit the ground with so much force that most of the tea splashed right back up and covered my face in a very slapstick manner.

Thankfully this is the worst thing that has happened to me in the last couple of days. The devastation from the fires in regional Victoria is awful, and my heart goes out to anyone affected (AFAIK I don't know anyone who has died or lost their home).

Female, 25, seeks something good to hang on to and keep her moving in a forwardly direction.

Firstly there is Euchronia on NYE @ Trades Hall. Both Gus and I will be DJing and there is a wealth of awesome acts, bands, DJs and other delights. I can get you cheap tickets. Message me and I'll sort you out. It's going to be the place to be this New Years. You know it's true because I said so.


Then in January you should check out the launch party for the rad new fanzine Lolocaust. It's a worthwhile read and a worthwhile launch - the two man mesmerising rock that is The Hotel Wrecking City Traders, The punk-as-fuck Useless Children and the 'see them before they get known' alt country weirdo goodness of The Mirrormen. It's FREE ENTRY so get down and check out some of the great local talent our fine city has to offer.


AND THEN the event you have all been waiting for (just go with it, okay?), the return of Sugar Kitten Cabaret!

Taking Place at The East Brunswick Club on Saturday 14 February, 2009, Sugar Kitten Cabaret is a bi-annual fund raising event featuring cabaret acts, burlesque performers, belly dancers, musicians, MCs, DJs and other delightful types.

The debut Sugar Kitten Cabaret at Eurotrash Bar in September 2008 left people banging on the door demanding tickets to the sold out spectacular. With the assistance of many wonderful performers, sponsors and supporters, Sugar Kitten Cabaret raised over $1000 for The National Breast Cancer Foundation.

The sophomore Sugar Kitten Cabaret will take place on Valentines Day at The East Brunswick Club.
With double the acts, and double the love, the night will feature performances from those beloved grotesque burlesque divas The Voodoo Trash Dolls, stunning trio The Diamond Dolls, the adorable V Dentatas, en-pointe contortion from Miss Limber L'amour, awe-inspiring pole tricks from Mz Judgment, steam punk belly dancer Ma'isah (Raqs Gothique), and Bella Du Bois & Miss Jadess (The Tanquerays), plus more to be announced.

Not to mention the tonne of exquisite gifts for you to win courtesy of our wonderful sponsors. With music from PBS FM's Gus Exposition and Triple R's Clem Bastow overseeing the proceedings, this is bound to be a spectacular night.

And the best part? It's all in the name of raising money for WIRE (Womens Information providing free information, support and referrals to women across Victoria).

Tickets on sale now via The East Brunswick Club or Wildilocks @ The Lockworks

Verrrry limited seating tickets available, so get them while you can!




I guarantee awesomeness at all three events. xo

Empty house. Just me and a fucktonne of rubble. I really miss my cats.

I really miss my cats.